Chapter 5 Misunderstandings

EPOV

Why do hangovers have to make you feel like your dying? Is the stupid stuff we just have to become brave enough to do when intoxicated not enough of a punishment? I guess not because right now i would be happy six feet under if it mean't the inccecid pounding in my head would stop.

 I got up and went to take a shower hoping the hot water would make me feel better but it didn't so I headed down to breakfast Alice's food is always amazing.

"Wow Edward you look like shit, did you contract a deadly disease or something?”

“Thanks Rose I love you too now shut the fuck up because I could ask you the same question.” I replied.

I placed my head in my hand not lifting my head when Bella walked in, was it a bit of a coward move? Yes, it was but I really didn’t want to think about last night right now.  When I finally looked up Alice walked in and I caught Bella staring, I smirked as she blushed at being caught.

We all enjoyed a rather silent breakfast and Bella had taken the dishes into the kitchen when I heard the ridiculous ringtone I have for Seth instantly helping my hangover induced mood.

‘I drank 30 beers for breakfast,

Cause Im a Bro Bro Bro
And I took the dirt bike to glamis,

Cause Im a Bro Bro Bro
I didn't jump one fucking jump,

Cause Im a Bro Bro Bro
I just talked about the river.

Cause Im a Bro Bro Bro

I listened to him talk about some chick he liked at school and I told him how my night had gone leaving out the part about fucking his sister of course. When he asked me to remind Bella he was coming to stay the night I was pleased I’d get to hang out with the kid until he mentioned bringing that Jake douche.

Once the girls had left I pulled two beers out of the fridge and set up the Xbox, i waited patiently for him to start talking but after an hour I’d had enough it was time for him to tell me his shit.

“Here dude now talk.” I said thrusting a beer at him.

“I fucked up Edward.”

“I already gathered that Jazz so your going to have to elaborate.” I replied resisting the urge to chuckle at my sarcasm when I saw the look on his face, I’m not a complete dick… most of the time.

“I asked her to marry me Edward”

“And that’s a bad thing because?”

“She didn’t say yes.”

“Oh…wait what!? Were both talking about Alice right, the girl who has being planning her wedding since she was 7 said no?” I asked completely confused.

Jasper sighed and took a minute before answering.

“It’s why I asked her, well why she thinks I asked.” He paused again shaking his head before continuing.

“She thought she was pregnant Edward, I was so fucking happy man. I’ve been thinking of asking her to marry me for a while now and when I saw that positive pregnancy test I just couldn’t wait, so the night before her doctors appointment I asked her. I guess I used the wrong choice of words and now she thinks I only asked her because I thought she was pregnant. When she came home from the doctors and said I didn’t need to feel obligated to marry her anymore because she wasn’t pregnant I lost it with her, we got into a huge fight and now she won’t even let me explain, I don’t know how to fix this. I love her so fucking much Edward I was so happy at the thought of her carrying my child and that I finally got the courage to ask her to marry me and now it’s all fucking gone.”

“We both know my sister is overly dramatic and stubborn, she’ll come round Jazz give her some time and she’ll let you explain. You know she’ll fight how she feels until she explodes and then she’ll be begging to talk to you. Now where have you been staying, and don’t look at me like that I heard you leave after you thought we’d all gone to bed?”

“I had been staying in our bedroom, Alice has been sleeping in a guest room, but I stayed at a hotel last night.”

“Jazz you know if you ever need a place to stay all you have to do is say the word but I think you and Alice will be fine.”

“Yeah thanks man, now come on I’m going to kick your ass on Call of duty… again.

My phone rang and I answered it without checking my caller ID much to my initial regret.

"Hello?”

"Edward it's Bella." Fuck.

"Bella now's really not a good time to talk about what happened last night in fact why don't we not talk about it at all." I had no idea what the fuck came over me when I fucked her over the counter last night and the last thing I wanted to do was discuss it with her. I’m a coward so shoot me.

"Edward you fuckward

“Fuck Bella why didn't you just say that!" I said catching Jasper's attention.

"I tried you ass now help me!"

"Okay, okay where are you?"

"In the spa car park."

I told her we were on our way and what to do to help Alice mouthing panic attack to Jasper as way of explanation for what was going on.

"Alice, Bella's right he loves you we all do and we need you to listen to her heartbeat, breathe with her."

Jasper was about to say something but I stopped him telling him to wait until we got there, that right now he might just make her worse, reluctantly he nodded his head in agreement.

"Bella we’re almost there just keep doing what your doing."

A moment later and we pulled into the car park Jasper shot out before I’d even turned the engine off. I followed catching up to him just as he ripped their car door open.

“Let me just check her breathing first man.” I said clasping Jasper on the shoulder, he nodded without a word and stepped back to let me in. I could tell that Jasper's presence was starting to cause her to hyperventilate again.

“Hi sweetie, your okay but you need to take slow breaths for me okay.” She nodded her head but seemed to still be trying to take gulps of air.

“I c…can’t… breathe.”

“Alice look at me do you trust me?” Again she nodded her head in response.

“Good now hold your breath.” She carried on gasping for air whilst looking at me like I was crazy.

“Alice you just said you trust me now fucking do it.” She took a big breath and held it as I counted to five out loud then told her to breathe out slowly.

“Good girl and again.” It was working she had calmed down emotionally and now her breathing was almost back to normal, I could feel Jazz hovering behind me not sure of what to do.

“Jasper talk to her.” I stood up and stepped back so he had room to kneel in front of her.

“Hey Alicat you scared me, please look at me darlin’. I love you do you understand, I love you. I know I messed it all up but I want to marry you more than anything. I didn’t just ask because I thought you were pregnant, it gave me the push I needed but honey I’ve had this ring for months now. I just never had the courage to ask you and for that I’m sorry and I’m so sorry for the way I did ask you I know I didn’t get it right but…” Jasper was cut of by Alice throwing herself onto his lap wrapping her arms around his neck.

“I’m sorry too I love you Jasper.” Jasper’s whole face lit up and he squeezed her tighter before letting go and digging into his pocket taking out Alice’s engagement ring.

“Mary Alice Cullen I love you more than I can ever show you and I want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with your crazy ass, will you marry me?” Alice let out a high pitched squeal as she jumped back into Jasper lap shouting yes over and over again.

When they started making out I turned away not wanting to watch my sister make out with her boyf…fiancé. Unsure where to look I turned towards the car my eyes landing on Bella, She was watching Alice and Jasper with a huge fucking grin on her face.

“Aww look at those two they’re so cute.”

“Err I’d rather not.”

“What now you can’t even be happy for your own fucking sister Edward she just got engaged for fuck sake.” She snapped, all traces of happiness on her face now gone and the previous animosity between us had returned.

“No Bella I just don’t want to watch my sister slobbering all over his fucking face okay!”

Her response was to slam the car door in my face.  I went round the other side and climbed in when I realised Alice and Jasper had already left during our exchange, leaving me with an uncomfortable ride home with Bella.

“What the fuck are you doing Edward?”

“Err getting in the car.”

“I see that. Why are you in my car?”

“Because Ali and Jas have already left, so you are going to give me a ride home.” I said sticking my tongue out, childish I know but it irritated her so it was worth it.

“Fucking Alice and Jasper just wait till I see them the bitches.” She mumbled to herself. “Fine.” She huffed setting off.

The drive home was awkward, neither of us saying anything and It was driving me crazy. “What happened with Alice Bella?  I knew something was up with Jasper but we managed to talk about it without any hyperventilating. She’s never had a fucking panic attack. I thought spas were supposed to be relaxing and shit! Damn it!

“Don’t you dare take this out on me Edward Cullen. She was pretending everything was ‘peachy’ like she always does and it became too much and she burst. I’ve never seen her like that either Edward and it scared the shit out of me too okay.”

We both stayed quiet the rest of the drive and eventually she pulled up in front of my driveway. I mumbled a thanks and shot into the house going straight upstairs to take a shower. I stood letting the water beat down on my tense muscles trying to relax them but it wasn’t working. I was pissed, I was pissed at Jasper for upsetting my sister, I was pissed at Alice for scaring the shit out of us like that, I was pissed at Bella because well I was always pissed with her and I was pissed at myself, I was just pissed in general. The water started to run cold so I quickly finished up and went to grab a beer before I headed to the restaurant.